I love the way you feel inside me, he said.Ryder made a low, rumbling noise of contentment. I love the way I feel inside you, too.I love that you did this for me because you wanted to give me something special. Luca started rocking back and forth on Ryder’s cock. I love that you’ve never done it for anyone else.Ryder’s brow creased. Luca…Luca put his hand over Ryder’s mouth, a domineering gesture that silenced Ryder instantly. He didn’t know where the words were coming from, just that they were clawing at his throat, demanding to get out.I love the way you treat me, he said. I love that you’re so much stronger than me but you never make me feel weak. I love that you take care of me without implying that I can’t take care of myself. I love that you let me take control but always call me on my bullshit.Luca had to pause for a moment; the pleasure of their slow, rhythmic fucking was making it difficult for him to gather his thoughts. Ryder waited, eyes watchful.I love that you’re always worried about doing the right thing, even when nobody else is. Certain that Ryder wouldn’t interrupt now, Luca let go of his mouth and braced his hands on Ryder’s chest. He bounced shallowly on Ryder’s cock, soaking up his size, his strength, his steady, reassuring presence. I love that I can trust you and I love that I can rely on you and – and I love you, Ryder, I do, I love you – Because he did, of course he did. It was crazy to pretend that he didn’t. He might be damning them both, but he couldn’t hide from this any longer, couldn’t let Ryder go on thinking he wasn’t head-over-heels in love with him.
Cordelia Kingsbridge