I felt good and all washed clean of sin for the first time I had ever felt so in my life and I knowed I could pray now. But I didn't do it straight off, but laid the paper down and set there thinking--thinking how good it was all this happened so and how near I come to being lost and going to hell. And went on thinking. And got to thinking over our trip down the river; and I see Jim before me all the time: in the day and in the night-time, sometimes moonlight, sometimes storms and we a-floating along, talking and singing and laughing. But somehow I couldn't seem to strike no places to harden me against him, but only the other kind. I'd see him standing my watch on top of his'n, 'stead of calling me, so I could go on sleeping; and see him how glad he was when I come back out of the fog; and when I come to him again in the swamp, up there where the feud was; and such-like times; and would always call me honey and pet me and do everything he could think of for me and how good he always was; and at last I struck the time I saved him by telling the men we had small-pox aboard and he was so grateful and said I was the best friend old Jim ever had in the world and the ONLY one he's got now; and then I happened to look around and see that paper.It was a close place. I took it up and held it in my hand. I was a-trembling, because I'd got to decide, forever, betwixt two things and I knowed it. I studied a minute, sort of holding my breath and then says to myself:All right, then, I'll GO to hell--and tore it up.
Mark Twain