At cocktail parties, I played the part of a successful businessman's wife to perfection. I smiled, I made polite chit-chat and I dressed the part. Denial and rationalization were two of my most effective tools in working my way through our social obligations. I believed that playing the roles of wife and mother were the least I could do to help support Tom's career.During the day, I was a puzzle with innumerable pieces. One piece made my family a nourishing breakfast. Another piece ferried the kids to school and to soccer practice. A third piece managed to trip to the grocery store. There was also a piece that wanted to sleep for eighteen hours a day and the piece that woke up shaking from yet another nightmare. And there was the piece that attended business functions and actually fooled people into thinking I might have something constructive to offer.I was a circus performer traversing the tightwire and I could fall off into a vortex devoid of reality at any moment. There was and had been for a very long time, an intense sense of despair. A self-deprecating voice inside told me I had no chance of getting better. I lived in an emotional black hole.p20-21, talking about dissociative identity disorder (formerly multiple personality disorder).
Suzie Burke
I turned myself to behold wisdom, for what can the man do that cometh after the king? …even that which had been already done.
Compton Gage
And this have I found, that man was made upright; but they have sought out many inventions.
Compton Gage